bluebird

Why do you suffer? why do you have to be the lamb whose sacrifice is never adorned? pain and shame never to be undone! Yet you take in everything, even when it hurts. you forgive ! even when it will take years to wrap over the hurt.

Planning a life and having everything snatched away from you, snatched so hard that there is nothing special anymore, he shared everything you had, so effortlessly that he didn’t think to reserve, not even a special spot meant for just you two, he gave it all away, he made new memories, memories he never gave you, memories you deserve first, yet he made you the redo,he lied to you and even when he opened up, he left the truth behind , why do you still stay, why want to share with one who has nothing new to create,

You’ve dreamt of being the first but he left you behind, like a reference at the back pages of a book. You are slowly slipping into a ditch, not shallow enough to keep you seen, you reached out to him yet he ignored all signs, while focused on the memories stolen from you, but created with another.

Now you are scarred forever, an internal yet eternal hurt that will never leave , because the cut is so deep that its last phase is a scar beyond surgical procedures. It hurts that he never realizes what he stole and how deep the cut goes, because he is too busy with his consolation, the outcome of his theft which you don’t, yet you care, so much that you fear.

Do you ever think of you? Have you ever given you a chance? I’ve watched you enough to see what you are, you are not like anyone i know or have seen, you are the only you, with so much love to give, if only you could share this love with a special someone, just maybe you might be the only one of the duo who truly sees and cares about you. Because I know no other special someone but you!